This week proved to be more challenging to write than I thought. Schoolwork is overwhelming and continues to push writing to the back of my mind which is extremely frustrating. The more I work on my book, however, the more I believe that this is what I should be doing with my life. I’m 34 years old. I’m not getting any younger. I wonder why I am pushing myself to get a degree when all I really want to do is write.
We watched a video this weekend that my wife found. It’s about why we fail at having a great career. Here it is and I think it is a really, really good ted talk:
I believe this is why I have built up in my head that I need a back-up plan. It’s because I am afraid of failing. Perhaps it was an odd thing to do, go to school as a back-up plan, but that’s the way my brain works.
Even with these somewhat distressing thoughts tumbling in my brain, I managed to work on my book and even get some new writing done. Didn’t make my weekly goal again, but I am progressing which is more than I was doing before. Have my writing group critiques and homework to get through tonight, so I’m done writing for the weekend. It’s a new week again tomorrow. That means I get another shot at reaching my weekly writing goal!